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The brown grass is startling to me.  I long for the day when the new grass has pushed aside the dead, the new leaves unfurl, signaling the season of beginnings.  Summer always represents new beginnings, at least for me.  Everything is light and care free as sunshine and freedom put me in a perpetually happy state.  I take in the world around me with the delight of a child, daring to believe the unbelievable.

September rolls around and whatever lesson I’m to learn that year arises in my life.  I’ll spend the next five - eight months discovering its meaning in relation to me, and slowly implementing this knowledge.  My favorite thing about these learning processes is that I’m slowly starting to figure out who I am. What draws me to these decisions, why do I think the way I do, why am I drawn to the people in my life?  Do they have a common dominator, or do each of their individual personalities connect with me because I’m nothing but a massive mound of personality facets and each one is satisfied by certain individuals who can, in turn, stand my own quirkiness?  These questions constantly bombard my psyche and steal my sleep as they bounce around my head.

As school has come to an end for the year, I’ve finally made some life changing decisions.  I’m extremely excited about them.  My twenty-second birthday lurks around the corner, and with it the excitement of more grey and life changes.  

So come on summer, I’m ready for you. As for September, I’m excited to see you again too, because I’m ready for the next part of my story.